Journal #2 – 3/30/2024
This is where it really begun. I started writing again. It’s been nearly seven years since I wrote. And it all started out with the letter of apology I sent to my Best Friend (his name will not be revealed, for it’s a sensitive matter to him. In fact, no characters’ real name will be revealed in my journals. I have to revise those out but it’s the least of courtesy I can show to the people that I care. I love them, and I love them all for partaking in my journey without even being told, and I must guard them at all costs.
I am cleaning out my room; while in which my toilet got clogged with oily food residues that I tried to drain down. This plan worked pretty well last time but miserably failed today. I ordered unclogger that uses compressed carbonated capsules whatever.
So the plan is on hold; but I will take this time to throw out some plastics. I have a ton.
We can’t compete people with time; since time is equal with everyone. How can I have an edge in this situation?
- Focus: more value for my time.
- Form future memories: Sometimes when I do things that I am competent at, I really don’t use the full set of skills I’ve learned. Instead, it’s the memory that I know that I can do that drives me forward to do stuff. I’ve learned that memories are fickle and unreliable and can be formed and manipulated by pretty much anything as long as you attach emotions with them. Our body (the brain) also can’t tell the difference between legitimate memory and false memories.
If I can leverage this, then the idea of “I don’t know how to” is a non-sensical statement. That can’t be used as an excuse to not do certain things.
But there comes the downside of deceiving your soul with false memories. As Jordan Peterson put it, “there will come a time when you are called upon to make a judgement of exquisite delicacy and if you are fuzzy minded and demented enough because of your own lies that you are incapable of such judgements, you will make the wrong decision and you’ll regret being alive as a consequence” (44:29, Truth as Glorious Adventure | Douglas Murray | EP 376).
If you rely on the forged memory on everything you do, then you may suffer the consequences of false realities where you can’t tell the difference between the material world and the figurative world.
The key in all that is to acknowledge the benefits and problems of both sides and check out only the fundaments.
Most of the times the answers that don’t work isn’t because it’s a failure; but because they are answers to different questions.
Viagra; first in design to cure angina makes males penis erect. Is it a failure? No, it’s just an answer to a different question.
I believe there is a gem in my mind. I just need to polish it.
Before I go to bed tonight, I will rewrite the script on PowerAutomate to prompt me questions in the morning. Questions are:
Did you dream? Yes or no
If yes, what was your dream about?
How do you feel right now?
What was the thing you did before you fell asleep?
What is one thing you will strive to fix today?
I thnk I want to write a book titled “How I used YouTube to save my life”
The kinds of videos on YouTube, ie. Meta of videos
What are the right kind of information you need and how to find them
Meditate with intention: do you want more focus? Do you want spiritual enlightenment? Do you want to improve your mental health?
My social proof is not the yacht, the Ferrari, the watch, the hot girl, or a fancy mansion. It will be the evidence of donation. I made this much, and I have donated this much. Show, and put it on public record. This is the most noble thing.
I need a giveaway journal.
Overnight success is impossible; even if that happens to you, your mind can’t comprehend it.
Success will manifest itself in a very short time.
Get your numbers: how much do you need to survive? Because once you have that number, then anything that comes to your way, you are free to play with. Donate, gamble, take risks, sponsor someone, anything.
Pick your vices that you will keep. Then realize the battle you will have to fight for the rest of your life to keep it in check. It will be costly, and you need to fully understand the consequences of it. The sacrifices you need to make to keep that vice will tear you apart when it happens. But if you are willing to accept that, you can keep it.
But you need to promise yourself right now that you will not come back blaming it on anything but yourself.
Everything can be leveraged into creating greatness. Even the worst parts of your life, the ugly, the disgusting side of you can become the lever for greatness.
Easiest and most common way is storytelling.
My plan for social media growth. I will reach out to the mentors in my life; the authors to the great books I read that shaped who I am today. I will thank them. I will write to them so that they may want to follow me.
Write to
I called my friend from highschool. I didn’t realize it was 3 years ago that we last talked. We talked about family, friends and work.
Ideas die one generation at a time.
There are two paths in creation of greatness; there’s the builder, and there’s the filler. Entrepreneurship at it’s core is providing solutions to problems. Product-market fit.
Budget my cigarettes
When f you decide to do youtube; write a script
Becareful of what you wish for. Especially the negatve ones. Life will deliver that to you, and the worst part is that it will through your current “best qualities”. Do you think you are outgoing? Well, Your outgoingness will be the mode of destruction. Are you a compassionate person? Do you know how much it hurts to be bitten in your neck by your own compassion?